Last Day in Haiti

It's Sunday and our last day in Haiti. It always seems hard to even remember what you did since morning at the end of these full days. Fanfan preached for us this morning and we returned to Gertrudes to give all the kids a fluoride. Wow, let's just say Haiti has a huge dental opportunity! We traveled up to the top of a mountain range bordering the city, it was beautiful and I was cooler than I have been in 7 days!

Haiti is a big deal to process and probably not much different than 80%of the world and historically 95%. It makes me so thankful for our country and the biblical foundations that have made it great, and the good we have been able to share with the world because of our abundance and conviction about freedom and justice. You realize the fragileness of the time in which we live and the difference a few choices.....a few people make. Like what if Haiti had a righteous leader for a decade. What if we got really serious about the huge opportunities we have when these kids come to America to study if we seized this opportunity to expose them to the truth of the gospel to raise up indiginous leaders to catch a vision of what part they might play in their culture when they go home. There is no end to the need....but real lasting change begins with self governence that comes from obedience to his commands. Jesus seemed to model inside out, bottom to top kind of change one heart at a time. The problem is global WE need the Lord.
I'll end with this since this is what got me to Haiti to begin with.
Isaiah 58:6
Is this not the fast which I choose, to loosen the bands of wickedness, to undo the bands of the yoke, to let the oppressed go free and break every yoke?
Is it not to divide your bread with the hungry and to bring the homeless poor into the house; when you see the naked, to cover him; and not to hide yourself from your own flesh?
Then your light will break out like the dawn, and your recovery will speedily spring forth; and your righteousness will go before you; The glory of the lord will be your rear guard. Then you will call on the lord and he will answer; you will cry and He will say here I am, if you remove the yoke from your midst the pointing of the finger and speaking wickedness, and if you give yourself to the hungry and satisfy the desire of the afflicted, then your light will rise in darkness and your gloom will become like midday.
We don't know precisely when these words were penned in Isaiah's life, but probably near the end which mean't the northern 10 tribes were already captives of the fierce, savage and powerful Assyrians leaving the remaining tribes paralyzed in fear of them and aligning themselves with godless nations rather than going to Yahweh as they watched their temple doors and implements of worship leave on the backs of donkeys bound for Assyria as tribute. Where was God? Why wasn't he answering? The point is...he was always a whisper away! When you read the chapter in context, He longed to fellowship, to tabernacle with them, but not as long as they were not serious about their personal bondage to sin and selfishness in spite of their fasting he couldn't abide with them! These were hard times for the southern tribe as nations warred against her on multiple borders; her need was great. Some of the tribes were fleeing to neighboring cities for refuge and food was scarce because of these border squirmishes. God was trying to show Himself faithful when they fully trusted Him to act on their behalf but He required them as us "to love their neighbors as themselves." He had brought this calamity on them causing them to turn to Him. He longed to be their protection from their enemies to show Himself faithful. Yes, Haiti is our neighbor and surely needs our help, but so might our neighbors in Minnesota or a U of M student. I think Gods heart breaks over the limitless power source that He is, to bring real change to our infected planet and the angels even marvel that He chooses to use us as His conduit of healing and joy and peace to the disease that has corrupted His creation. We are blessed and much will be required... no matter where we are tonight.

Thanks for praying guys, Kirk for giving your blessing and your hard earned moola, my kids for picking up the slack, friends that gave me push to Haiti, and Jeff and staff for your generous hospitality, and...... God for another view of Himself.

Blessings,
Mare

He is GOD of ALL!

The Last day in Haiti.. The team went up the mountain and had the chance to see the city from a different view.

I could not get this song out of my mind as I stood there and looked down…

You're the God of this City, You're the King of these people You're the Lord of this nation, You are! You're the Light in this darkness! You're the Hope to the hopeless! You're the Peace to the restless!
You are! 



There is no one like our God !!!
There is no one like our God !!!

For greater things have yet to come. 
And greater things are still to be done in this City. 
Greater thing have yet to come 
And greater things are still to be done in this City.

…And greater things are still to be done in this City, 
Greater things have yet to come 
And greater things are still to be done here!!!!

Before coming to Haiti for some reason I thought of it as a very spiritually oppressed place. I thought I would see even more helplessness, more sin, more evil. I had heard the history of how years ago Haiti was dedicated to Satan (although I know that it was recently rededicated to Christ). What I thought I would see was totally not what was there….

I really did see Jesus in Haiti. I saw him in the eyes of each of the children we touched.

I saw people seeking after him as we drove by the packed out churches as sounds of worship leaked out of the cracked walls.

Written on doors....

On their homes...

Above the doorways of their schools...

I saw him alive and at work in the missionaries we met,

definitely in “Healing Haiti” ministries...

and the incredible staff they have working with them …

I saw God at work in my incredible team members...

As we got to be His hands and feet to the YOUNG and the OLD.....

AND I felt his mighty hand working inside me … leading me, teaching me and molding me just a little more into who He wants me to be. He is the GOD of that City and the King of those people He is the only LIGHT that will pierce through the darkest of times. …. I know there is so much more to be done there … BUT I have complete confidence He is at work in a mighty way.

With that said, I also think we can find Jesus everywhere we go…. If we are seeking after him, If we prepare our hearts and minds and want God to work in us and through us. While God used Haiti to show me so many things… I know that the same God is at work here today as well. We do not “HAVE TO” go to Haiti to be his hands and his feet.. to feel or see His presence at work.. to be molded into the person that He wants us to be… BEING ABLE TO GO TO HAITI AND TO BE USED IN SUCH A WAY is a privilege, and honor… one that I humbly hope I will be able to do again sometime soon.

Preparing for HOME!

Ok so I know I have some catching up to do on this blog and hopefully I will find sometime go back and finish up soon. It is not that I have not been trying to process some of my thoughts it is just that I seem to hit some road blocks along the way … Not bad ones but just can’t seem to get it on paper (or computer screen) right away.

But for now… I am starting to prepare my heart to return back home. God has a crazy way of ripping your heart out on a mission trips and molding it to be the way that He wants it to be. It is an incredible time to really reflect on GOD and His plan… not ours. I have thought a lot about submission on this trip. Submitting to God’s plans even when they don’t always match with ours.

Ok, I have to go back and tell you about the day we met Jude JohnPaul. He is a young 17-year-old boy who at the age of 5 started having seizures. His mother showed us his school pictures when he was a normal active young boy running around and playing like everyone else. The problem was when the seizures started they had no medication for him to control them like they would in the U.S. They became so severe that Jude John-Paul must of sustained brain damage at some point and for the last 12 years he has been bed ridden, his mind and body both completely affected.

As we laid hands on him and prayed for him I was overcome with emotions (YES, AGAIN!! ;-) ) So many things were running through my mind all at once and still do when I even try to process that moment. I guess the bottom line for me is that of submission. I will never have all the answers to the questions before us. I do not completely understand why God allows Jude JohnPaul to remain like this for so long.

Verses flood my mind like…

…“Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.” Matthew 17:20

(in which I know 100% that God could heal Jude JohnPaul if he wanted to, is my faith really so little)

“…You do not have because you do not ask God. 3 When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures.” James 4:2-3

(LORD, We ask for this that your Glory be Reviled!)

Yet, I feel Jude JohnPaul is another example of us learning to submit to God. learning to trust that His ways are better than my ways even though we don’t always understand. For those of you who know me well and have read my other blogs know this is a repetitive subject for me. WHAT IS GOD TRYING TO TELL ME?

For now I will just …

“Keep on asking and it will be given to you; keep on seeking and you will find; keep on knocking and the door will be opened to you

For everyone who keeps on asking receives; the one who keeps on seeking finds; and to the one who keeps on knocking, the door will be opened. Matthew 7:6-8

Kerry Ann is reading the Seeing God – by David Roper. I was looking through it and just need to share with you a part of it that hit me as I am preparing to go home.

“Everyone thinks of changing humanity and nobody thinks of changing himself” – Tolstoy. From the beginning of the trip Jeff has repeatedly said.. maybe this whole thing is more about US and our HEART then the people we are here to help. …

The book goes on to say …

“I can talk about compassion for others and yet be utterly tactless and inconsiderate to my own family. In which case, what I am at home is what I am. Or I can think myself reasoned and self-controlled, but what I do and say when angry and unobserved gives me away. My character is what I am when I am alone.

…. There’s old Adam within, with vast potential for greed and selfishness. I know I can’t change him much. Frontal attack has never worked for me. As soon as I resist sin, I endow it with more power. This same power it usese against me. Inner transformation, thus is God’s work. As Mother teresa put it, we may will holiness, but He must do it.

What I need is more of God in me. He must work His work. Righteousness is His gift, which I may receive, David’s prayer in Psalm 19:12-14 becomes my own.”

Psalm 19:12-14

But who can discern their own errors? Forgive my hidden faults. Keep your servant also from willful sins; may they not rule over me. 
Then I will be blameless, innocent of great transgression.

May these words of my mouth and this meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, LORD, my Rock and my Redeemer.

I am making this my prayer…. praying that God continues to make me and mold me (no matter how painful it is at times) into exactly who he wants me to be.

It's Saturday! - Jan 15th

It's Saturday and we are home taking a break after a morning at Mother Theresa's, this is a Catholic orphanage where they take in orphaned and really sick babies! These Haitian kids are so beautiful....sick or well, there are probably about 100 cribs all together and the lower level houses the sickest ones. What is amazing is how they feed themselves real food like rice and beans at a very early age. One little guy I held was another National Geographic picture he was five years old and had been in the orphanage since December 12 he was really skinny, his little bones stuck out and he looked like the poster boy for a malnourished kid. The nuns are amazing! And we met a lot of folks from the Twin Cities today, there is a Catholic Church that has adopted 18 kids this trip! One couple left with their new little girl while we there to go home to Bayport! God has moved the church to answer the cries of Haiti.

We are being treated to an authentic Haitian meal of Creole or Kreyle tonight and it smells amazing in here. Tomorrow we will go back to Gertrudes and do fluorides on the kids, visit the mountains, and metal market which is where they sell their metal products.
More tomorrow,
Mare

FRIDAY - JAN 14th

I am so confused about what day it is. And I swear the days here are more than 24 hours long, that might be life without a cell phone and a packed schedule.
We met a centurion today that looked like someone out of a time magazine photo, a hundred and three years in Haiti is a long time. She was beautiful!
Healing Haiti has built homes and sponsored several old and handicapped people in the city where the orphanage is almost completed, we visited some of them today. But the highlight of today was the kids at Yvonne's orphanage singing to us. I must say these Haitian kids cannot only sing but are amazingly well behaved. When we got there they sang to us, and had the nicest things to say to Jeff about Alyn, we all were in tears. But the most amazing thing to me is to watch 30 kids sit without fighting or fidgeting at dinnertime and sing solos and duets for over an hour. I'm shocked that these kids who have nothing will not touch or take the supplies we've brought until they are given to them. They played a long, sweaty game of keep away from the adults. And since we were on a roll with the paint thing we introduced these kids to finger paint, which was something you could tell they had never done. It was a good day!
My word of the day was baptism, I'll explain. A big theme in Isaiah is the importance of the lamb and the blood required to pay our debt; which is signified in baptism. In haite at the end of the day you and your clothes are grimy, filthy, sweaty, germy; in a word you're disgusting. You don't want to sit, or anything else until you've showered (with bleach Becky)and changed. God feels that way about this infected planet and the way it has corrupted us, we soooo need his cleansing to come into His presence. Thank you lord for rescuing us from this tent city of hopelessness, can't wait to be home with the saints of every tribe, color and age!

-Mare

A Two for One ! June 13th & 14th

Okay so here is the thing… I have read Amy’s. Kerry-Ann’s, and Mary’s blogs and they are filled with wise words and catchy phrases. But I am sorry if you are reading my blog I type how I talk and I just so happen to be a babbler. Also, I am two days behind on this blog so I will have to inform you about all my crazy adventures in one. Yay I love two-for-one!

Yesterday we started off with going to a school Healing Haiti sponsors and it was a three-story building that teaches primary and secondary school. We handed out toys and necklaces to all of them. The school was filled with kids from Cite Soliel; surprisingly from what we saw the first day with the water truck, the kids looked well groomed and the school was very nice. Normally these kids would not be able to attend school, but because Healing Haiti pays for the salaries of the teachers, the children can go there for free. Then we went to the mass gravesite from the earthquake. The only word to describe that was: Speechless. I was just in ‘aw’ the whole time. After that we went to Grace village, the village that Jeff is building on top of Titanyen. It is B-E-A-uuuuu-tiful. I can’t wait to see how it will be when it is finished. Phase One is going to be an orphanage, and a food center that will feed local kids on the street. Healing Haiti also envisions building a church on the site to reach out to all the people surrounding it, but for now they will hold service where the feeding center is. Last, we went to Guilluame’s Orphanage. When we pulled up all the little kids were in a circle singing. Their voices were outstanding, and man do those kids know how to pray. We did rock painting that soon led to painting a colorful and artistic mural on the wall. You know even though the people that will have to clean that up will be mad( and I feel horrible), it really gave the orphanage character.

So mother I was thinking… the little boys need friends right? Oh my word did I fall in love with these two twin girls. They were gorgeous and so delicate. They just wanted to be held and loved. I want to adopt them too. So then I was talking to Noelle and five kids that have two aunts sounds like a great thing to me!

We finished off the night with watching Alyn’s celebration service. I did not get to meet this amazing woman, but she sure seemed absolutely outstanding. Jeff and her were the package deal because Jeff is one of the most genuine, heart-felt, kid -loving, God-seeking men I know.

Yesterday was one of my favorite days but it felt like the longest day I have had in a while. I got sick at night, but in the morning I felt a lot better.

TODAY!

So today we started off with French toast instead of the usual pancakes. My taste buds thought that that was spunky and liked that. Our first stop was the market. It was on the side of the street in Titanyen. It was a crowded place with people trying to sell vegetables, beans, and second-hand clothes for a living. This market is only on two days out of the week. When you look at the women you see that many of them are older. Some had little pieces of fabric hanging over them for shade and many were sitting on tarps on the ground. What they had in front of them were many of their only possessions and their way of supporting their families. In this market there was a little place that was selling goats. These goats were not like what you would picture them being sold, (having a leash or tie around the neck or let loose to run around in a little area), these goat’s legs were all tied together and they were lying on their side. It was sad and really weird to me.

After this we traveled on foot (and it was really hot out) to see this boy named Jude- John Paul. This boy is truly special. He was a normal regular boy that went to school and everything up until the age of five. Then he started to get seizures and since he couldn’t get his hands on medicine his body shut down and his brain and his body were affected. He is one of those boys in ‘Alyn’s terms’ where instead of asking God ‘Why?’ you need to ask God ‘What are you trying to teach me?’ His boy is currently 18 and he just lays in his bed everyday. His mother sure does love him! We laid our hands over this amazing boy and just asked for his glory. My heart just goes out to him and his family, and he will stay in my prayers. We stopped at a few elderly peoples house and gave them some bags of ‘goodies’ that consisted of hygiene products. We met a lady who was 103 and she lived in a tiny little shack. She was so happy to see us!

The last stop of the day was at Yavonne’s orphanage. It was another orphanage that Healing Haiti sponsors. When we arrived all the little kids ran up to Jeff and gave him so many hugs and loving. It was so cute! They sure do love him. We were greeted with them singing songs. One little girl stepped out and started a song with a solo. I am not kidding you she had a voice of an angel. I truly believe that when you get the goose bumps in situations like this it is the Holy Spirit. Let me tell you the Holy Spirit was all around in that place. When the kids sang I could not hold back and my tears they just kept coming… I don’t know what it was but I know it was God’s presence. For an activity we traced the kids on paper and they painted their traces- much like a ‘flat Stanley.’ Then I set up a beauty parlor and did many girls hair. Before I knew it my hair was being pulled in every direction and I got a lovely ‘free’ hairdo. Oh it was just gorgeous!

Before we left many of them sang solos for us. Even the little three year olds. It was so amazing how all these little kids love to sing. What is even more amazing is how they do it all for the glory of God. I feel so blessed to have met all these kids. On my way out they told me that they will pray for me. They for sure have a permanent spot in my prayers. Haiti as a whole does!

(Through all of these blogs I have found out that Amy might actually be worse at spelling than I am. It is okay though I am not judging! I still love her anyways J J J)

-Alana

Guillaume’s Orphanage -JAN 13TH

Another stop we went today was one of Healing Haiti’s orphanages they sponsor. As we arrived the kids were in a big circle…

...wonder how long they were waiting. We pulled up and they all started to greet us singing with the most beautiful voices. You could tell they were so excited to see Jeff. They continued to sing songs of worship and praise. If you ever wonder what true SONGS OF WORSHIP was suppose to look like it was what I saw and heard today coming out of the mouths of babes. AMAZING!

Thanks to Noelle’s creative mind we came up with a craft to do with the kids. We thought it was pretty simple, paint a rock, put a couple eyes on them, a dab a glue on the top and plop the little fake hair we brought. It started out pretty good..

but then one thing led to another…

(tracing with chalk)

another and ….

and another….

as the fake hair was glued on their own faces.

(they are just posing like they are tough… such sweeties)

We had so much fun playing with them. Jeff and Fan Fan took some of the older boys and played some soccer, and keep away. I really could not tell you who was having more fun.. the boys or them. It was obvious how much the kids love them and it was obvious how much joy they bring to Jeff. AMAZING!

In the end the writings on the wall reflected the hearts of the children and it was absolutely beautiful. Their love for Jesus and their thankfulness for Jeff and Alyn.

After gathering together for more worship and prayer the kissing and hugging line formed.

We seriously have to do this at home sometime.. Maybe for my birthday!!! ;-) j/k. but it was AMAZING!!!

Really an incredible day….

The Lord is Good and His spirit is most definitely alive here in Haiti!

-AMY

Who knew....

Who knew a trip to Haiti would include Salsa Lessons...

a little stress releaser!!!! Thanks Jean!!!

WE WILL NEVER FORGET - 1/13/2011

Today was jammed packed -although we got a lttle slow start it did not really bother me. There is just something about all sitting around a breakfast table together starting a day with the best happy face, high five and/or abstract pancakes. A slow start yet jammed pack and by the end we all were pretty exhausted… and dirty of couse.

One of the stops we made today was the grave site of the mass grave that was created at the time of the earthquake. Yesterday was the 1 Year Anniversary of this horrific event. 232,000 people were killed that day. At least 100,000 of them buried here. There were many crosses and wreaths that were left behind to remember their loved ones.

I know Jeff spoke of being dissatisfied in the site and I understands what he was saying. Think of what great memorial we would of built in the U.S. to remember so many lives lost. I may be wrong about this – forgive me if you strongly disagree – but part of me walked over the site and all I could think of was how all these people got to heaven just a bit quicker. I know how some home how feel closer to our loved ones when we visit the site where they are buried but for some reason I find this a bit odd. While I am in no way wanting to disrespect the remembrance of such a terrific life altering/ world altering event, I just don’t know if the site of the buriel is where I would go to feel closest or even remember my loves ones. Their body or outer shell may be there but they are no longer there at all. (I pray if I were to die people do not remember my ohhh so flawed outer shell but remember my still flawed but forgiven inner being who hopefully represents me a bit better).

It just so happened that this site was just on the way to GRACE VILLAGE. As we approached you could start getting a glimpse of it sitting up on the hillside over looking the town of Titanyen.

Driving through the little town I became so over whelmed with excitement to actually be able to see the place that I have heard of for so long. We tredged up the mountainside and when we got there the first thing that I noticed was the incredible view. I did not have to even look at the structures that were on the land but just taking in the incredible view of not only the gorgeous ocean side but being able to overlook the village, shanties and people below I knew this was a place where God was going to do mighty things. As we walked the land and buildings and Jeff shared the vision that God gifted him and Alyn with I was overwhelmed with emotions. There are little fingerprints of Alyn everywhere. Jeff said one of Alyn’s wishes were to see Grace Village finished but God knew she would love the beauty of heaven just a bit more. Alyn’s memory is so much more throughout Haiti then it could ever be at any gravesite. I am so overwhelming grateful to Alyn and Jeff for being so obedient to God’s calling and for touching so many lives in return, mine, the people of Haiti and so many in the US included.

Jan. 13th - Mary

Today seems like it was about 48 hours long. We started out our day at Elder school and observed school Haitian style. This school was significantly damaged during the earthquake but across the street 100s of kids lost their lives....a sobering site. We had the privilege of seeing the progress of Jeff and Alyn's beautiful new Grace Village on top of a gorgeous piece of property here in Haiti. It truly is lovely and it will be exciting to see exactly what God has in store for this little jewel. It is amazing and challenging to see the foot print these two have left on this county in five short years.
We also visited Gillian's which is another orphanage for city of Soleil kids. It was the beginning of a career for future graffiti artists of Haiti. What began as rock painting turned into outlining bodies on their brick wall and using every drop of paint to write messages. The boys played a rugged game of soccer and sang and prayed for us in Creole when we came and when we left.
Love their singing!
Tonight we came home and after much needed showers and a yummy supper, we sat down and watched Alyn's memorial service. What a beautiful life lived, loved....broken for Him. How blessed you all have been to know her and what imprint and space she has left behind....
Mare
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Blessed 1-12-2011

At the end of every day we gather together for a time of reflection, sharing and prayer… part of this time we go around the room and each share our WORD of the day. It can only be one word but usually it is followed up with a longer explanation which leads to some discussion amongst the group – Really a great way to get us chatting , although this group does not really seem to have too much trouble doing that.

Today my word was … ‘BLESSED.”

I feel so amazingly BLESSED to be able to be here … to have this opportunity to be able to be used by God in such a way.

Blessed by the smiles and love each and every child gave me each time I held them or played with them or even touched them. (even the ones who cried the entire time not being held).

Blessed to be able to attend the amazing memorial service I did tonight with some of the most amazingly selfless people who have given their lives and moved to Haiti to serve the people here.

Blessed by the worship tonight and..

Blessed by just how much.. HE LOVES ME!!! - yep we sang many of my favorite songs tonight but this one especially always hits me right where I need it. It is one of Jeff’s favorites too… I know this because I think we have heard him play it about 20 times … and no, not sick of it at all. Who can ever get sick of hearing just how much our heavenly father loves us!!!!

I think of the kids today that we visited at Gertrudes Orphanage. I know that they are well taken care of and their caregivers probably do love them… but no one ( But God) can love a child like their Mama and Papa. Most of the children there may go throughout their lives never experiencing that due to their physical or mental handicap.

Like Mickey…. A 17yr old boy in a wheelchair, so smiley, and spoke pretty good English even, most likely intelligent-yet so skinny, entire body frail, legs seemed immobile, but he could use his arms to get around in his wheelchair although his entire body seemed to be contorted a bit, his eyes appeared as if he could not see but I think he could to some degree. He loved when we talked to him and especially when we massaged his arms and legs with lotion. Such an amazing thing what touch can do. Mickey will never know what it is really like to be loved and cared for by a mom and dad. He will most likely never be tucked in at night, prayed over and kissed on a consistent basis. But then I think how David called God, “A father to the fatherless.” And I think how Mickey has a Heavenly father that loves him so deeply. I know that someday Mickey’s body will be restored and perfect and then he will be able to run with all his might right into those arms of His Abba , Daddy who loves him so much!

Mickey was just one the children I had the privilege of caring for today. Each and everyone of them were so special in their own way, I long to know each of their stories, to spend so much more time there with them.. loving on them the way they so deserve to be loved.

Needless to say my heart was broken today but I am ok with that. I never want to grow indifferent or blinded to what I see. I always want my heart to continue to break for what breaks God’s in every way!

I am Blessed today! I don’t think I could ever bless any of the people or children that I have met on this trip as much as they have Blessed me.

-AMY

Jan 12th - Mary

Hey peeps,
Visited Gertrudes today which is a home for handicap kids. About 30 kids live there, some are in wheel chairs, some are fine but awaiting adoption. The place was surprisingly clean and the kids were well behaved. Thought of Lars today, there was a little downs girl that they watch close cause she likes to run away; Lars liked to do that too. No-one gives... melt into you hugs like downs kids.
We also had a service and dinner with folks that have ministries down here and most were here during and after the earthquake. It was a room full of saints that really love the Lord and these Haitians. God is doing a good work here in this place with broken everything! Some pretty incredible stories and people!
Pray for Haitians as they grieve there losses and for hope for it's people who surely need a Righteous Ruler.
Goodnight,

Mare

Healing Haiti Team Member

January 2010

Attention: - Jan 12th

When the day was coming to a close and we sat down I pondered (yay big words) and thought that the word- attention would be a good ‘Word of the Day’ word. I chose this word because really made me think that everyone wants to be loved and everyone wants to be noticed. There are many hurting hearts out there that are just dying for someone to reach out to them and give them attention. The kids here will do anything just to have you look their way.

Today we started off with pancakes again! But no smiley faces ones because Amy wasn’t on top of her game J Then we headed over to Gertrude’s Orphanage. It was an orphanage that took in around 30 kids. Many of them were handicapped. If I thought that yesterday was hard… today was worse. I was touched by so many today. When I walked into the gate to the orphanage this little boy came up to me and just took his two hands and placed them under my chin. He stood there and stared at me straight in the in the eyes with a little grin on his face. I saw God through this precious boy’s eyes and knew that he was in our presence. Then this other little boy named Michael ran up to me and just hugged me and wouldn’t let go. Instantly I fell in love! Not kidding you I am going to adopt this boy someday. When he smiled for pictures he didn’t just smile, he puckered out his lips like he was pressing them up to a window and showed his teeth. It was adorable.

^(This isn't the puckered lips, but the wrinkled nose is adorable!)

There was this other girl that really defines my ‘Word of the Day’. I met this lovely lady when I walked into the back room. She was just sitting there in her wheel chair staring at the other kids. When I went up to her she just looked at me and smiled. As I tried to use Creole- the little that I know- I soon found out that she was incapable of speaking. I just took a few minutes and sat there and smiled at her and rubbed her back and arms. When she looked up and smiled and laughed at me I got the goose bumps. She reached out her arm and just held on and hugged me. Let me tell you GOD IS GOOD. It was just another time of the many that I knew that he was in our presence today.

Every one of these kids are adorable and beautiful inside and out. Being here you can really tell that God loves his little children. All the little children of the world!

After the orphanage we went to a service that was filled with many amazing people that have given up everything to be here and help out Haiti. To be honest they seemed like famous people to me. If someday I inspired to be half of what they are I would be SO grateful. They said a little phrase today that really stuck with me ‘God is the solid rock when the earth shakes.’ Being here on the one-year anniversary of the earthquake was truly amazing to see. It is mind-boggling how great God is and how so many people have one- on-one personal relationships with him. Today the churches were filled and people were looking up to and relying on the Great Alpha and Omega to get them through.

To sum up today: It was wonderful, impactful and heart breaking.

Ohhh and mother I am going to adopt Michael. But… here is the thing he has two other brothers so it’s a package deal!!!

I am having an amazing time and I wouldn’t change these past few days one bit!

- ALANA